So its been almost a month since I have written a post for this blog. I am feeling incredibly guilty about this.
It started out with me just needing a break. I was getting a little triggered by the writing about sexual abuse here and the reading about sexual abuse for my class. I started having nightmares about my perpetrator. I thought I’d just take a week or so off, take care of myself, and then get back to it.
Then midterms for grad school took me by surprise with much greater demands for my time than expected.
Just as I was recovering from that, my grandmother died.
I probably would have felt better if I had been blogging throughout that whole process, but I just couldn’t seem to find enough hours in the day.
So, I’ve had a rough month. I’m still feeling very overwhelmed with all that I have on my plate between work, school, and family.
I’m giving myself permission to write shorter posts and hoping that will help me get back to sharing my experiences with y’all.
Please forgive me for my absence!
I understand the feeling of not wanting to be triggered… I wish sometimes I could just UN-remember things. Bury them again, deep, deep, down… But we have to remember that we don’t need that stuff inside of us. But be encouraged! You are not alone.
I’m sorry for your loss. I hope you can find some freedom in blogging when you need to.
Rachel, I’m sad for the many challenges you’ve had recently. You are strong and capable, but that doesn’t take away the hurt.
I will be praying for strength and peace for you….